i thank You God for most this amazing
by E. E. Cummings, from 100 Selected Poems.
i thank You God for most this amazing
day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun’s birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any—lifted from the no
of all nothing—human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
Wednesday morning…woke from a dream of being shown an opening in the barb-wired fence surrounding the area I was in, by a mystical young girl standing silent and still, on the outer edge. I breathed gently. There were no words exchanged as we gazed at each other. I found the way out and she disappeared. A bit later while pondering this dream, as if led by Awareness Itself, I rediscovered this poem by e.e. cummings. Great poets have a way of finding words for the inexpressible. And i thank You God for most this amazing reflects my heart’s experience. Today, deep gratitude “for everything which is natural which is infinite which is yes.” i feel fully alive.
“Love flies on its own wings and knows no laws. It is the emergence of grace to wrest us from the hypnosis of separation.” – Francis Lucille
What does it mean to live an awakened life? On some level, I believe it means living in this world with an open heart, in union with divinity. This is happiness. When I’m at ease, the beauty and tenderness with which I relate to myself and the world can radiate positive energy, creativity and a quality of presence that merges with the present moment. I am Love.
However, as we all know, as life unfolds, there are challenges and difficult situations; some predictable others unexpected. I’m facing some of both right now. My heart is heavy. I wonder what lessons there may be for me to learn in relating to painful life experiences? Who is the one that feels inadequate, sad and undesirable? These sorts of emotions are raw and sometimes overwhelming. My body is speaking as well, in ways I am yet to understand.
The way of a bodhisattva is to be willing to stay present and live out of this place too. Pema Chodron teaches that we need to go beyond our aversion to pain. Avoidance keeps us stuck in an imbalance of attraction to pleasure and aversion to pain and discomfort. Is it possible to be at home here?
We are never alone. Having an enlightened teacher helps me stay the course, to have courage, be authentic and to live from my true essence. To experience Love with another person is to know God. I believe my awakening is channeled through this relationship. There are no boundaries or separation in Consciousness and I am deeply aware of a transformative experience underway. This is real.
From a nondual perspective Francis Lucille shares, “We don’t love the other, we love the love in the other.” There is beauty in the unanswerable questions too.
“We are certainly blessed to be enveloped in love because the resulting happiness, confidence, sensitivity it produces benefits not only us but our attitudes and connections to others in our world.” –Shirley Kimball
While sailing at sunset tonight, the wind was quiet, the sun sure of itself, and a sliver-shaped moon effortlessly appeared with its borrowed light. After a long week of thinking too much, I found that it’s my heart that knows the way home. Just as being close to natural beauty can help point us back to the Source, so the realization of Love as our shared being, divests us from the limitation of separateness. Awareness is undiminishable. Like the moon that is illumined from the sun, living with Openness and waiting without waiting for anything…is freedom.